I know I've asked this several times now but all you prayer warriors out there, we need you now. My dad will be having his surgery on Saturday to once again, remove more melanoma from his head. It has been rescheduled several times and most recently because one of the surgeons took a closer look at his MRI from a couple of weeks ago and felt it was a little more involved. The tumor is very close to his skull and we are PRAYING it is not attached to it. A neurosurgeon will be on call in case they find that it is but we really need that to not be the case.
I've only collapsed to my knees before God twice in my life but last night was the third time. Just begging Him to please heal my dad. To please let this have a positive outcome. To please guide these surgeons. To please keep this cancer from spreading. To please let me have many, many more years with my dad. We've been through a lot as a family these last 2 years or so and we desperately need this to be okay.
I'm sure many of you have been where I am now, feeling desperate and wanting to do something but knowing you're not able. I'm trying so hard to not let the girls see me get upset and keeping myself busy so I don't go down that road of fear.
I don't know what lies before us with all of this but what I do know is that God does. He knows and like my mom has told me, this isn't a surprise to God so I've got to trust that whatever happens, it's in God's hands and His ways are always better than ours.
Let Go, Let God.
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."-Joshua 1:9